hold on into the only bright light

dear god,

i realize that i become such a nutcase for this whole time.

i never meant to.

i never want to.

but this horrible situation that change me into malformed beast.

i can never trust people like i did before.

i know i have been too inclement and too careless for doing things.

and now,i think i just become a bad influence in my family.

so for the sake of my beloved father and mother,i will try to change and become more capable to be a good listener.

please help me,god.

i know you are the only one who could.

amen.